Tonight is Christmas Eve and I am missing my Andrew so much. Someone said one time that Christmas is for kids, I don't believe that but I do believe that Christmas as we know it makes no sense without kids.
One of my oldest and dearest friends called me this evening to wish me a Merry Christmas. We talked for almost an hour and as we got ready to say goodbye she brought up Andrew. Her voice broke as she told me how she thinks of him all the time.
She went on to say that she could still see his smile and how when he looked at her she felt total acceptance from him. She said he had a look in his beautiful eyes of genuine interest in her and what she had to say. He made her feel important.
I had never ever thought about that but when she said it I recognised those traits in him immediately. It didn't matter if you were 3 years old or 103 he was the same with everyone. He would genuinely enjoy doing a puzzle with a child or going out with my friends for drinks. He never condescend to anyone. He enjoyed everyone he ever met.
Mychelle was right - he was the most loving genuine person that you would ever hope to know. I miss him so much, its just not Christmas without him.
6 comments:
I enjoyed reading this about Andrew and it is rare to find someone so accepting of others regardless of their age. How cool is that? I had some time to come visiting today. I wish you all the best in the New Year.
Thanks Sandy, hope 2010 brings unexpected joy for you and your family.
Cara, thanks for visiting my blog today :D I'm impressed with your painting this year. You're back on the horse.
I also think often of you and your Andrew.
I know that you suffer without him and hope that he comes to visit you often in comforting dreams.
Much Love, Mary
I know what you mean. I am not ready to plunge right in to Christmas either.
love & hugs,
~Silver
Silver - it never ceases to amaze me that even in such grief there is a seed of information that is more precious than gold. This year with no child, or nephew or what ever I had been using to fill in for my loss over Christmas I was quiet enough to study about Christmas more than I ever had. It struck me that this was probably the most (dare I say first) spritual Christmas I had in my life. There were none of the worldly trappings and distractions (pleasant as they were in the past)so it took on an very special meaning to me. I will post about it next Holiday season as I think its very honest. Thanks for visiting. I thonk of you often my sister on the journey -
Thanks Mary - I don't dream about him as much as I would like but my dreams are meaningful. I had one several weeks ago that I intend to post in the next day or so. Very very meaningful dream.
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